Wednesday, February 16, 2005
had school training today. then after that had my first national youth training session. what people said was true. everyone told me that i was going to suffer when i got in. i guess today i did suffer. they did some aiming thing and the coach was like indirectly mocking me. i hate that. guess i have to learn to live with that from now on. we played target practice. i played 8-8 first target got 60% while second target got 67.5% better den i expected but to the others it was kinda bad i guess. well. so much is on my mind. my daddy told me that he had agreed to sponsor a certain sum of money for the school jersey if i need him to. now my bowling team wants to get the fila jersey which i supported and expects me to be paying. they are like my good friends. i dont wanna dissappoint them or anything. but this certain sum of money is kinda like alot of money. i cant bear to just give it to the school. its not like it does any good to me either. i'll be paying for people i dont like. and my mother keeps nagging me about the money. like its not water and crap. den piss me off so much. this stupid jersey thing is giving me so so much problem. bowling politics is not to be messed around with. especially if im in the opposition party and ure all alone. nobody dares to stand up to anything with you. even the captain. i keep taking charge of things. even some parent was like. wow. eugene took over the captain role. please la. im just doing my job right. if the captain wun do anything. i will do it. and stop messing around with the school bowling affairs. especially teachers. they are just teachers. they can even come and tell us. the bowlers. what to do when they dont even know how to spell bowling. oh my god. help me. people see me they think that im very happy-go-lucky kind but please la. im super stressed one kae. oh man.
bowling teachers please stop blaming me for everything dammit! ****p.s. im so frickin pissed and stressed!
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