Monday, January 02, 2006
family dinners arnt the same anymore.
they rarely happen these days.
on rare occasions like tonight, when we're all free.
we have dinner together.
thats called family dinner.
normal family dinners are fun, not this family.
we sat, we ordered and we waited.
hardly a single word was spoken.
maybe it was because of me, i was quiet.
everytime a 'family dinner' occurs, its normaly fun.
xmas eve and new year dinner alone, sucked.
i felt like crying half the time, the other half was spent messaging.
i quarrelled with a babe today.
i told her i wont bother her life with my life again.
i feel thats quite almost impossible,
having spent the past three years bothering her life.
thats a fifth of my life time.
pretty amazing isnt it? how miracles happen in mysterious ways.
why i call this a miracle? because miracles are DISGUSTING.
just like certain people whose life took a turn for the worse.
the ancient belief, the god of hatred has set a task on declaring war on me.
i cant fight a battle that has been won two years ago,
i can only bluff my way through and deceive myself that i won.
but truth is, i lost and i suffered heavily for nothing.
++eugenie++time cant heal all wounds
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