Monday, February 20, 2006
spending many times thinking of how messed up my life is.
i shall be grateful for what god has provided me with.
by the grace of god :
- i have been placed in an awesome acs education system which really help me improve alot as a person and meet really important friends who i know i can count on no matter what.
- i have been able to experience acjc life for about two months. even though i may not be staying at this instituition, i know god has have great plans for me ahead in my journey. it is hard to leave and say goodbye to acs. i have made many friends in this two months and its hard to say goodbye to them as well. for i know that i am a true blue acsian who would really stand up for my fellow brothers and sisters.
- i have a skill in bowling. naturing and developing my skill is what i need the most now, bowling cannot put food on my plate but it can give me a sense of usefulness and purpose in my 17 years of life.
- i have a wonderful family with a hardworking father, a ever-caring mother and a loving sister/friend. im also grateful that my parents are really supportive of my bowling even though my acadamic results are not fantastic.
- i know i can bring the fun, joy and humour to a group of people. i am grateful that i am not a boring, dull kind of person that people would shun in society.
- i have a house, food on my table, water in my tap, clothes to wear and friends to confide in
so many things i can be grateful for in my life, but i keep choosing to grumble and complain about the matters to be forgotten. i dint make it to acjc. i got 32 points for my o levels. i dont know what lies ahead of me. i will miss my holmes in acjc, my 1ad3 in acjc. it will be hard to adapt into a schooling system i have never experienced in my life before. no more school uniforms, no more morning prayers, no more majulah singapura and no more chapels. my life embarks on a whole new journey.
acjc funorama was quite a success. my food stall actually filled up a tin on coupons but the rain had to come and disrupt our business. i worked for about seven hours in the entire nine hour carnival. i had alot of fun during this event in acjc. i walked around giving away free mee siam and fruits to people like a retard. there was even this guy who wanted to complain about my stall and i directed him over to the admin office where he could complain. i will miss this acjc. everyday thoughts of how i will be spending my next three years cross my mind. i know im being a little sentimental about these issues but i do have the right to be right? i still wanna attend school in acjc like a normal first three month day but i have to face reality. i messed up this time eugene. i messed up pretty badly.
++eugenie++
life goes on babe
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