Tuesday, August 29, 2006
did you even like me from the start.
was it a one way street?
there's no stopping on a one way street.
its double yellow line
++eugenie++i've been hurt
express yourself! {13:46}
sew this up with threads of reason and regret. so i will not forget. i will not forget how this felt months ago. i know i cannot forget. i'm falling into memories of you, and things we used to do. follow me there, a beautiful somewhere. a place that i can share with you. i can tell that you don't know me anymore. it's easy to forget, sometimes we just forget and being on this road is anything but sure. maybe we'll forget, i hope we don't forget
im falling into memories of you dear
++eugenie++memories
express yourself! {00:37}
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can’t explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don’t want to need at all.
was is an indirect message, was it just a casual chat.
i cant lose you and i really really am scared.
we'll see where god takes us and where our journey continues
but it doesnt end tonight
i'll wait and wait till i know its impossible
i love you
++eugenie++deconstruct my thoughts
express yourself! {23:52}
Thursday, August 17, 2006
when youre having holidays and everybody else is schooling and mugging for their exams, somehow it gets to you how lonely you can be. time passes so so terribly slowly. heh talk about a universal remote aye. would really come in handy now. i can barely live another minute of long hours. draggy days and god i have nothing to do. its early, ten in the morning. just finished my dental appointment, i have to attend training tonight at seven. so for the next nine odd hours, wth am i suppose to do. lets see what i have achieved during my duration of my past three days of holidays. finish a 22episode english drama serial, covered a few episodes of lost, gone for countless training sessions, gone shopping twice. damn my holidays are horrible. anyway, i kinda messed up my papers. i left more like half blank. and i swear i knew most of the answers but i just couldnt write it down. lately i've been thinking so much about you that i cant concentrate on anything really. my trainings have been very pointless because every shot i throw, im just throwing it without realising what i am even doing. but i dont want to like pressure you or anything like that. anyway i miss you like hell
++eugenie++
inside i ignite
express yourself! {09:57}
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
the days are long
the nights are even longer
a single name in my soul
whispering to me
my one and only desire
to be beside the one whom
i love
++eugenie++ at least now you know
express yourself! {21:50}
Sunday, August 13, 2006
dont worry
nobody will know
give me a reply
++eugenie++im going crazy
express yourself! {22:39}
Friday, August 11, 2006
i hate you you you you
i really hate you so much
eugene youre so stupid i swear
fucking stupid moron
i hate myself
i dont want to lose you
i dont want my old life back
until forevereternity is up
++eugenie++i scream inside myself
express yourself! {00:25}
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
ahh. you know babe, somethings are better left unsaid
but im not the type that can keep things inside and you know that
i will let you know whats wrong okay
just give me some time please
let me sort out my thoughts and my plans
i have alot going on now. and poof my exams are beginning to stress me quite a bit
im just glad to know youre still there, waiting i hope
++eugenie++sometimes it doesnt hurt to ask
express yourself! {11:08}
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
deception is so overwhelming
sometimes we find out more than what we're suppose to know
and most of the time, the truth stabs you at youre vital organs
until i bleed and i hurt, all for the sake of knowing that dirty little secret
that you hid from me, little did you know, i have done my deeds
drown my sorrows and widen my the canal for my tears to flow
somethings bugging me
++eugenie++squish that bug
express yourself! {01:02}
Sunday, August 06, 2006
I'm on the verge, I'm on the verge
Unraveling with every word
With every word you say, make me believe
That I won't feel your tires on the street
As I'm finding the words... you're getting away
I come undone, oh yes, I do
Just think of all the thoughts wasted on you
And every word you say, say something sweet
Cause all I taste is blood between my teeth
As I'm finding the words... you're getting away
Well I'm ready, I'm ready to drop
Oh, I'm ready, I'm ready so don't stop
I'm ready so don't stop, Keep pushing
I'm ready to fall, oh, I'm ready
I'm ready so don't call, I'm ready so don't call
I am aware, I've been misled
I disconnect my heart, my head
Don't wanna recognize when things go bad
The things that you'll accept
Except that I am finding the words... to say
I'm ready, I'm ready to drop
Oh oh oh oh oh, I'm ready
I'm ready so don't stop
I'm ready so don't stop
(I wake up to find it's anotherFour aspirin morning, and I dive inI put on the same clothes I wore yesterday.When did society decide that we had to changeAnd wash a tee shirt after every individual use:If it's not dirty, I'm gonna wear it.I take the stairs to the carAnd there's fog on the windows.(And I'm Fighting the words...)I need caffeine in my blood stream,I take caffeine in the blood stream.I grip the wheel and all at once I realize:(And you're getting away...)My life has become a boring pop songAnd everyone's singing along.)
Well, I'm ready, to drop, well, I'm ready
I'm ready so don't stop, oh
Well, keep pushing, I'm ready to fall
Well, I'm ready, I'm ready so don't call
I'm ready so don't call, oh... oh... oh...
++eugenie++im ready am i
express yourself! {19:10}
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
dont be angry with me
i sense tension in your digital message
was it something i said, or something i did?
i wont know, but i dint mean any sarcasm
been moody and grouchy these few days
please forgive me for anything or anyone i have ignored
or maybe even dissed off
its not my fault
its just my little swing, going back and forth
++eugenie++catch my hintings, like a sudoku
express yourself! {01:40}
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