내 밝은 별



Incompatible, it don't matter though
Cause someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do, you're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Lovable is already in my life?
Right in front of me or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit?
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Oh, somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone



How do I get close
When she looks like an angel
A moment of her time just seems impossible to me
it's hard to find the words,
to get to know this stranger
I'm scared of what she'll say if
what I say sounds incomplete
And it feels like we belong together
Can someone tell me where do I start

Cuz, I can't keep on feelin' the way I do
I can't keep on, hiding my heart from you
I got to say something before
Someone else comes through,
I can't keep on loving you,
From a distance

She's always on my mind, there's
no room left for thinking
I'm tired of waiting slowly fading
it needs to happen now.
Cuz I'm running out of time,
and I feel this ship is sinking
The doors are closing I am frozen I need her around
And it feels like we belong together
Can someone tell me where do I start

Cuz, I can't keep on feelin' the way I do
I can't keep on, hiding my heart from you
I got to say something before
Someone else comes through,
I can't keep on loving you,
From a distance
From a distance
From a distance
From a distance

I CANT HIDE
Cuz, I can't keep on feelin' the way I do
I can't keep on, hiding my heart from you
I got to say something before
Someone else comes through,
I can't keep on loving you..
I can't keep on loving you,
From a distance





k



so im sitting in my hotel room now. the holiday inn kuwait. just finished watching the man utd bayern match at this awesome place across the street. smoothest shisha ever with like 6 mega huge flatscreens giving me a headache to which one i should angle my body to view. and uber yummy kebabs with chips. disappointing to see my team lose last minute to a defense blunder but still an awesome night out with my teammates (:

so the tournament didnt go well at all. my timing was pretty off and i had alot of stuff going on in my head i somehow couldnt get rid of. games a little rusty now, think i havent been competing enough the past year. my heart actually pounded so fast on the first day. my adrenaline was uncontrolable like the last time and it wasnt such a great sight. i couldnt make the finals and im just left with two days in this beautiful desert city where the days are hot and sunny and the nits are chill and windy.

gonna go to bed now and sleep over a heavy head. quite pleased that i have went through a whole week and more without alcohol and my body is feeling quite the clean! detox in the middle east. gonna hope to wake up to a hearty breakfast and maybe an hour or so at the gym. all these kebabs and daily baskin robins are just gonna make me rounder whahhaha. oh well.

goodnight world.



okay so im in kuwait now. its about 5 hours behind singapore. really nothing much to do here except to sit in the hotel room playing online poker until its time to have a meal. bowling starts tomorrow and im hoping we can get in a few practice throws today in between. the exchange rate is really madness. 5sgd = 1kuwait dinar. and yesterday's dinner was 6dinar? thats like 30 dollars and you dont really feel it cos its like a single digit bill. wtf man.

anyhow i gotta settle alot of things in the back of my head by tonight if im going to have any chance of bowling well in the kuwait open. so much things going through my head and its been piling up. maybe i'll try to go run it off in the gym later or something. life has been so hectic back in singapore even with a freak accident 5 hours before i left. my girlfriend's friend kinda walked through my glass door at home and really severed her left shin pretty badly. just hope she recovers well. god bless you margreth!

no bb service for me here. its wicked expensive. like 2cents per kB. so anything just text me peeps. going for breakfast now. - eugene



its been way too long since i last wrote an entry. decided to put one in before heading off for a crazy night with cosmic gate. whoop whoop.

well ive been posted to sispec charlie coy and i out of coursed (of course! pun intended). found out i have like a huge ass back injury. like 2 degenerated disc, 1 slip disc and a bulging disc which would hopefully down pes me to c9l9 or my life this year is totally ruined. currently attached to the sispec guardroom and the school sergeant major, mwo limsongsiam is giving me total hell. sigh hate my life in army.

things on the bowling end have been pretty good. finally got promoted to the elite squad after like forever. got many tournaments to prepare for and its such a pity im in army now. 5 majors this year including asian youth cship in kuwait, asian bowling cship in uae, world men cship in germany, world youth cship in finland and asian games in guangzhou! really hope i make it to the asian games squad and get my dream gold medal. eyeing it since i started competitive bowling. one step nearer now. silly encik of mine didnt sign my leave form so i missed out on euro-challenge in paris and msia open. now ive to pray he releases me for kuwait in two weeks time. game has been a little rusty and i hope i can polish up myself again =s

been doing alot of reflecting lately. decided i wanna go overseas and build like a church or something meaningful after army before continuing with my studies. these's so much we can do for society and its so sad whenever you watch the news about all these chaos happening. we just take our own perfect lives for granted. we face problems like no money for pertrol or cant leave camp to attend some party. when people out there, fellow humans are wondering if they can survive the next 24hours cos they have no more food, living in poverty. no clothes or shelter. medication or clean water to drink. we're all too pampered and spoilt. not trying to be a hypocrite cos i know that im among the top of the list.

my life lately. army. bowling. partying.
hope it changes soon, i cant keep partying like that.
hopefully i'll check back in to blog again.

three.sunflowers



its been way too long...


I've practiced this for hours, gone round and round
And now I think that I've got it all down
And as I say it louder I love how it sounds
Cause I'm not taking the easy way out
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

It came out like a river once I let it out
When I thought that I wouldn't know how
Held onto it forever just pushing it down
Felt so good to let go of it now
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow
There's nothing here in this soul left to say
Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow
God know we tried to find an easier way
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
That's why this comes as no, as no surprise

If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it's better than where we are now
But after going through this, it's easier to see the reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

The kiss goodnight, it comes with me
Both wrong and right, our memories
The whispering before we sleep, just one more thing that you can't keep
Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise



grr reality sets in when im so near my enlistment date. im just a day away and all the enthusiasm i had initially are beginning to wear off. im actually kinda dreading to go in now. its a really horrifying thought that goes through my head. sigh. god help me go through this.



hmm im back from manila. thank god. what a hectic race back to singapore.
it was a depressing 7 hour wait outside the airport. the sudden rain in the wee hours of the morning only grew more aggresive as the morning daylight rose upon us. by the time we left the hotel for the airport, 2/3 of manila was covered with water at least knee high. damn ondoy typhoon. the bus we took had to detour twice to find alternate routes to the airport due to massive floodings. the first two steps of the bus on the inside was filled with water seeping through the doors and as much as it seemed fun, i was pretty panicky on the inside. though quite amusinglu when we drove past what initially was the huge canal for their waste water to flow, it looked just like a road on the same level as us. that was how high the water level had risen to. it kinda looked like a super empty expressway which nobody bothered taking. as more water seeped into our little bus, weighed down with tons of bowling equipment, taxis floated by uncontrolably and village children, underestimating the floods, came out to swim the great ondoy olympics. it was really quite a sight. when we finally reached the airport, we were relieved, it was on much higher ground than any other place we were before. though there was one problem. the massive floods have caused some landslide ding dong thingy which tripped the entire airport into a haunted pitch black building. yes a blackout. and pardon me, i was in this super distressed and tired condition from the sleepless night and casino time the night before. i resulted into taking a 30min nap outside the airport with what i can only describe as the world's most uncomfortable and back-breaking 'mattress'. yes. i slept with my feet hung up on the railing, jacket all zipped up, unglamourously lying down on 4 bowling balls in a tote bag and a 2 ball trolley. nonetheless, it was really quite an experience. so desperately looking for comfort. hungry, tired, restless, and needing to pee, after a 6 hour wait, we were finally allowed to go into the recently evacuated airport for our MANUAL checkin. yes you heard me. a dozen helpful pinoys trying gallantly to tug and pull our crazy motherheavy bowling equipment onto the conveyour belt (which wasnt working) and down to the chute to the plane. with proper sanitation in sight, i pinched my nose and walked in to take a piss (: ahhh. delightful! walking towards our gate and passing all the different airline lounges in dimly lit corridors, we found our gate and what seemed to look like a huge refugee camp. man it was one hell of a hectic journey. thank God the flight back was homely and half empty. we had the luxury of having three seats to ourselves (: i love SQ.

on a much lighter note, i didnt bowl well this trip. didnt make the finals and it was rather depressing watching my entire team of 7 bowling the finals. while i just sit, i mean stand, there and try to be another pair of eyes for em. coach told me that he could tell i havent been competing in awhile because my shot making wasnt as accurate as it used to be. oh well. i guess i have to worry about all that after army. hopefully, i come out in one piece! great to be back and i've just a week left before shaving my head and being a common recruit. gonna make the best out of my time.

typhoon ondoy have moved on towards vietnam and my entire family is there now in hoi-an. by the beaches and apparently the winds are outrageously strong. pray they have a safe journey back tonight. okay world, time out for cyber space!

ilu<3

sigh im so retarded

stepped into the shower after waking up from an afternoon nap, stripped down and on the tap. only to realise that i just showered an hour ago -.-

i think im going crazy



hello world.
once again my frugal attempt to keep this block somewhat alive.

i cant wait for thursday to come. finally a good little getaway with close friends in hongkong. away from all the crazy in singapore. crazy school, crazy bowling, crazy stress. cant imagine all that shopping i would get to do. summer sale in hongkong is probably the shopping event of the year. then when i get back, its rush up report and gear up for presentation time! hopefully after that, my special little gigantic getaway2 would be on its way (: cant wait.

i fell pretty ill on friday. woke up with a sore body from gym and a inflamed throat dying of thirst. caught harry potter that night and it wasnt as good as i expected it to be. the book stated that there was suppose to be a massive fight scene towards the end whereby everybody fought each other and it resulted in snape killing dumbledore. grr was looking forward to that scene but they kinda simplified the whole 20 page fight scene. anywayy, i went to see the doctor on saturday morning and he diagnosed me with just a typical common flu virus. though my temperature kept rising upon reaching home. hmm its great to feel loved and being so well taken care of by people that matter to you most. where they risk their own health just to be by your side and keep you company <3 anyway i was feeling a little better and we went to catch OwnTimeOwnTarget. its some funny play about army life. very vulgar but extremely entertaining. though it got a little dull somewhere towards the end. ah well. all in all, a very loving weekend!

happy birthday daddy (:

well the girls have left for world women champs in lasvegas, so here's a good luck shoutout to you all! GOOD LUCK GIRLS (:

kae, back to that report... grr..



hey everyone!
been pretty busy the past couple of weeks. trained for a week and im finally learning new things again. getting some work done on my axis rotation and side rolling. not too shabby (: school starts this week ): bahh. im still in such a holiday mood. the past two weeks were awesome and it seem to passby as if it were the weekend or something. caught quite a few shows. pelham 123 was really good. i just love all these action/adventure shows. transformers sucked though. i felt it was trying too hard and it was a little too comical for me. ah well. gotta start training up for the PBAP selections in two weeks time, hopefully i can make the top six (:

planned quite a long july vacation. i'll be heading to hongkong with my sister, kawai, sofie and laura. might meet up with fuwei there from the 23rd to 27th. followed by a probable PBAP tourament over in philipines from the 28th to 3rd. so quite a packed two weeks away from home, though i dont wanna go for either trips now due to some personal dedications, im thinking i should try my best to make the cut for the PBAP trip. i could really use a bowling competition to start firing up my desire to bowl again.

13 days straight...



another week has gone by so quickly.

im so screwed. i thought my DOA common test was on wednesday 4pm. hence i woke up and studied from 9 all the way till 3 only to reach school and i find out that i got the dates all mixed up and my common test was actually on monday =X sighh. way to throw away 30%.

on a lighter note, i took a whole week off bowling to let my wrist recover and stuff. its much better now :D i can actually move it around and lift heavy things again. its been ages since i went mambo and this week's mambo was actually quite fun with such dandy company. had an awesome awesome second half of the week and i managed to attend frisbee on saturday! such a long time since i woke up for frisbee but then again, it rained so heavily and the pitch was all muddy ): reminded me of the days i used to play rugby and we could all roll around the ginger flavoured mud!

ahh well. school isnt going as great as it should be. everything else is awesome (:



ahh its the finals tomorrow and i feel pretty psyched!
just hope i dont mess up by not getting enough rest, last year i was super super tired after the youth in the morning so this year im gonna try to retain the energy. hopefully the lane and i matches up well and the score will do the talking! wish me luck people!

been really busy with bowling lately, need to catch up with alot of work in school and ive been having alot of side distractions as well. an awesome distraction i would say. then again, everything has its ups and downs.

having alot of thoughts going through my mind lately, even in my dreams. oh well..

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